Got a life, now what?

[97Hope]

Exactly, living. crumbs. I've learned after 19 months of this NOT to get my hopes up...or down for that matter. It's a learning process.

Thanks for the hugs. I could use them. I am exhausted after working again after so long staying at home. Drive to and from is a little over an hour each way. Not bad by some standards. Gives me time to listen to a sermon on the way there in the AM and sing my head off on the way home.

My uncle is in final stages of life after drinking most of his life. He's not doing well. I shared that with H and H was clueless as to his own issues. (as expected)

DIL (22) called last night. She is very confused. Told her she would have to call H to get his side of things and she said that S(21) asked her not too. Why is no one in this whole family confronting him on anything? They never have. I would be shocked if they ever did. I don't even think he will listen to anyone at this point, but it might be nice if they told him how they felt about all this.

Anyway, my contract was extended for another 3 weeks, so I have to get used to working full time! I'm happy that they want me around. Nice to be needed...even if it's just for work. But hey, I'm feeling a little desperate!

H is here working on the yard again. I waved as I pulled in the drive, but I have too much to do to hang out with him out there. That is a 180 for me. I normally would go out and help him work.

Feeling like he's getting ready to tell me he's ready to file. Trying my best not to focus on what he does/doesn't do. Some days it's better than others.

Would love to be ok either way. I know in my heart that I will be ok. and I'm in such a better place than I was at the initial BD, but man I do NOT want to put myself or this sweet family through a D.

Thanks for reading. Ya'll hang in there stay strong.