lovely GAL plans sound great smile Good luck being productive! I haven't done as much as I needed to yesterday or today due to this hormonal stuff, but I finally feel over the worst of it. I went for a lovely swim and got some massive hugs from a good friend. Then I went for a run with dh and we had dinner at the pub. It was ok, he was quite snappy at me during the run about things like me interrupting him (don't think I did too badly) but I think he'd had a difficult day at work with people he doesn't like so I didn't take it too personally. He finished up his drink and pretty much shooed me towards the train, which I tried hard to again not take personally, but he did text to check I got home ok.
We were arranging stuff for the weekend, he said he'd take the kids to their activity when I said I might get away for half the weekend before going back for ds2's match on Sunday. I pointed out that then I wouldn't get to see him at all over the weekend and then he suggested a walk but the logistics didn't really work. So then he suggested breakfast on Friday morning since I'm going to be in town anyway. So that was good. I feel partly relieved that he's not rushing to stay over at home when I'm away but also sad that he won't spend too much time at home. It's not like it's just me he's avoiding, it's all of us.

I feel frustrated that he's so shut down. I'm sick of talking about the weather and surface things and his job. I don't know how we get past this, or if. Maybe since he's been pretty good about responding to my requests so far I might see how I could phrase trying to get some more emotional intimacy in a way he might feel comfortable with. I don't know. Maybe I just need to wait till April and be more patient. Anyway, another early night beckons since I'm still not back to normal.