tryhard, Alison is right, and you seem to already know, that #2 was bad. It was trying to control her. You can't. It set expectations for you. You shouldn't. You admit to being impatient. This will kill you in DBing. I am coming to the belief that the #1 requirement for DBing is patience. Finally, if she were to cross the boundary, what is the consequence, and are you REALLY ready to follow through with that consequence?
As far as how you are feeling today. Completely normal. I remember the first 6-8 weeks of my sitch. Man the emotional swings were intense. One day I would be ready to move on, actually excited about the future without her. To the next day feeling like my world was going to end if she left. Felt like there was almost no in-between. Hang in there it does get better. You have the right idea, staying busy is important.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018
