It's been a few weeks! I got really busy with work to the point where all I've been able to do is work and care for my daughter. I hope to read all of your updates and post on your threads as soon as possible. I'm hoping things start to slow down this week. In the meantime I thought I'd be post a quick update.
There are no changes in my situation. My husband never mentioned divorce again after it came up over the holidays. Apparently he's moving an hour away from us in a month or two but I don't know any details. After the holidays I stopped speaking with him completely. I don't think I mentioned I decided to visit his girlfriend's Instagram account one day, which is now private, but the profile photo has been changed to one of him and her together on a beach somewhere.
About two weeks ago my husband called our daughter three times on a Friday night. During the last call he sounded upset and said "tell Mom that I'm sending her money for a babysitter so she can have a rest." Then this past weekend he visited our daughter and I had to pass by him, unfortunately, to bring the car seat from the car. He no longer comes inside our apartment, but as I entered he said "I need to talk with you in person." I told him to text me. He said "it's not about divorce or anything. We just need to communicate in person." I told him again to text me but he didn't. I don't really know what he thinks or what he's planning but at this point I'm waiting to see what happens when he moves here and starts his apparent new job. I have a lot of concerns about his girlfriend meeting our daughter.
I saw some posts here-and-there about some of your dating stories. It would be so great to meet someone special who's going through the same thing but in my case I haven't even remotely met such a person. The European guy with whom I'd been communicating started sending me videos of himself speaking English and he seemed enthusiastic about meeting until one day he responded late, said he got sick, and I stopped hearing from him a few weeks ago. I have no idea if he met someone else or if he wanted me to follow-up but I haven't written to him because in the last text I said I hope he gets well soon and he easily could have said thanks or said anything to keep the conversation going. The brief glimpse I had of the online dating scene gave me the impression that it's not for me. The other European guy I met through work seems excited to meet when I come to his country but a real-life relationship wouldn't work for us. There's one lone single dad in my building, a few doors down, with a toddler a bit younger than my daughter. We stand in the hallways with our kids sometimes. He's always smiling and laughing and staring at me but he barely says anything except when I ask a question. I can't figure it out....we could be friends but he's either shy, conceited, or not interested.
It's still an odd feeling to feel alone..some days I still wake up and I can't believe my husband is gone. I often feel sad when my neighbors, colleagues, and friends complain about such menial things in their lives and yet they have loving husbands caring for them and helping them. A partnership is such a wonderful thing. Life is already difficult as it is. To share it with someone is just so great. I don't know if I'll ever have that again.
One father of a kid at my daughter's school took care of his kids for two weeks alone while his wife was away. We see each other almost every day so I'd ask how it was going and he'd complain about how hard it was. When his wife got back I asked her where she went and she said "a yoga retreat in Bali." I've never been apart from my daughter for more than a few hours since she was born, which I don't regret, but I can't imagine having such a reliable husband that I'd feel comfortable going away for two weeks. It must be really, really great to have such a husband!
That's all for now, but I hope to respond to your threads soon. AnotherStander, interesting how you note that texts you used to send read differently later on. Davide, thanks for checking-in. How are you doing?
