I don't have any advice because It does appear that we are in similar sitches. Holy cow. I do believe there is a script that they read!
I'm going to start following you and grabbing some encouragement from your thriving and surviving. So far I'm surviving. Ha. Better than surviving, if I'm honest, but not quite to thriving yet.
I'm sorry for your sad thought, but remember, he doesn't always know what's going on in his head so It might be best that you don't think about it too much. (That's what I have found that helps me).
I'm still figuring out this site, so I'm going to try and follow your threads. I like these journal entries. Helps me when I journal, and helps to read about others going through similar circumstances. Keep your chin up! Big hugs!!
ps. In a perfect world, we would be neighbors. I moved here 3 years ago and have a couple friends, but I've only shared my sitch with one and she has no clue what my H is up to. She is completely blown away, so I just hang out with her to have fun. it's funny because it's like an island away from this drama. It would be nice to walk shoulder to shoulder with another stander.
Take care of you!
ME47 XH44, S28 S24 S19
8/17-BD IHS: 1/17-2/19 D FILED (ME): 7/19 D FINAL: 10/20 M23 T25 OW CONFIRMED: 01/21
Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.