It started when she called me and I was irritated with her requests for assistance with her mother. Her mom was sick and requested the night before to bring soup and apparently OJ. I brought the soup but did not bring OJ. I was working late and did not hear the OJ part apparently. She was a little miffed that I did not get OJ. When she called I was very short and gave one or two word answers. The irritability was behind every word I said. She sarcastically told me to have a nice day and I ended the call.
She was crying because of the way I sounded on that call. She tells me that when I have those moments it ruins the day for her and she has to keep it together and sometimes excuses herself because she is affected by what I say and do.
She told me earlier in the week that her friend died and that I would need to leave work early to pick up D5. She did not ask me to take it off. She told me I am taking that off. I was short and asked her if there was someone who can look after D5 because I don't want to miss any more work. I felt like she was entitled to my time and not regarding or respecting my schedule. Instead of calmly telling her my thoughts, I got irritated and threw a tantrum. I realized my mistake and called back a few minutes later apologizing for my reaction.
It's crap like that I am still working on. She did say that I have been better in recent weeks but I still have a problem with the way I express my disagreement. That being said, she knows that it's still a problem and tell me as such when I act out (calling me an a-hole or pr*ck).
R2C, I do see that I need to shut up. I need to work on the part that I need to just listen. Whether she is right or not, I just need to listen. The audiobook I am listening to echoes that statement. Am I understanding this correctly?
