sorry..for your pain- I don't know anything about that counseling but hopefully it can help-
If I remember your situation from b4..Your H made movement toward you when you were showing signs of being done..moving on when you were selling the house? Is that correct?
Either way , not to contact is probably a good plan- working on you creating new activites, friends ect hobbies healing-
I would not beat yourself up-about anything
We all do the best we can at any point and usually only learn after--
sometimes the price is high to learn stuff we need to BUT
nothing ever turns out wrong in the big scheme of things trust that-
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