Feeling lost getting over it and maybe not caring

[Turbine]

Meeting a buddy I've known from junior high for burgers at my favorite local Irish sports pub for his birthday.

Feel guilty W didn't allow a chance on her birthday, but that is on her. Because I would have loved to do something. A nice dinner or something. She did let it out I didn't get her a cake. Cake... if you aren't home and not talking to me, my failure to mind read is not on me.

Younger D has her birthday tomorrow. I will treat her to dinner or pizza. Her choice. Former boss tomorrow too. He gets a call. Weird... maybe but he puts in a good reference for me on job applications.

Speaking of... looking... on top of everything else going on. Tough. I need a little more stability right now. We shall see.

Had a Guinness this weekend with game night friends. One of them... that was his first beer ever. Over 30 so interesting...

More later. Still praying, working on me. She was at the gym after I got there. Saw her running on the treadmill. Took a wrecking ball to whatever I had built up. Intentional or not... Finished my workout and she hers. For me.