I don't think this is related to the dates (though earlier on the dates did really unsettle me for days afterwards). I don't know where this morning's stuff came from, it just appeared from nowhere about 8am and knocked me sideways, it was a wave which came over me. I feel a bit calmer now, just exhausted. I won't make any hasty decisions... Yes, he was kind to me. I just really wanted him there in person and I told him that.
