Oh Dilly. I know just where you are and it stinks. It really stinks. It's horrible.
When it is the right time for you to be done with this, you will know. And you're not trapped - you can move on whenever you are ready to, and wait until you're at that point, doing what you're already doing for yourself.
Do you have your list of things to do when in extremis? Your 4-8-5 breathing?
If sugar helps, have some jam on toast. You're allowed to have whatever comfort you can.
