Praying comfort for you Hope! We can all relate to the feelings you are having. Those of us who found ourselves here all have been scared, lonely and just like you didn't want a divorce...and yet we had no way to stop it nor change that fact.
As Ready says you are very early days and its impossible to believe, but things will get better. Time unfortunately does not move along as fast as we would like sometimes. I can't even really remember the first 6 months post-BD. They were like a blur and I lived very much in a depressed/zombie like state. As Ready as well says you just have to keep making it through. Draw on your family, friends, co-workers, your faith and all of the fine folks on here.
You have a D6, I have a D4. My WW in better than a year has never spoken at all of not divorcing even to saying it was for the best for D4. I see my special, happy, beautiful girl growing up right in front of me with all of the wonder and possibilities and hope in her young life and yet...EVERY day I grieve to myself that she will not be able to have in her young life her Mommy and Daddy living together with her.
TIME, PATIENCE, ENDURE...you like the rest of us have been dealt a horribly unfair and painful thing to deal with...that is TRUTH...but YOU have the power within yourself to choose how you will let it affect you. That is TRUTH as well. The only question now is will you let this event control you. ALL of us are pulling for you not to let that happen as we know it will get better for you.
