Well it’s a riveting Saturday night and I’m procrastinating my little arse off. I need to wrap up a presentation for the head of my company. I told him I would send it tonight so it will be in his inbox when he works on Sunday. The bad thing is, I’m super burned out and I have no motivation to get it done, but I know I must... and I will.... even if it means I stay up all night.
This last week was insane, but I did some cool things for some high school students. It was pretty cool. I really enjoy volunteering.
This morning, I was at my gym and had a conversation with a gym friend. She just started dating her ex husband again and she is super happy. They were together, he left (didn’t get the details.. I wouldn’t pry)... and she moved on. He came sniffing around last year and now they are dating again. She brought up how he is having a hard time being accepting of the things she did while they were not together. She’s done a really good job with her boundaries even though it’s becoming an issue.
I don’t share these stories to gossip at all... these aren’t my stories to tell after all, but all these relationship nuances completely fascinate me. Human behavior fascinates me. It’s so interesting. I treat them all like case studies and I learn a lot from them.
Anyway.... Late last week I got a piece of info about one of ex’s latest ventures. I hate that I have to be concerned about these things, but I still have to Seek out info in order to protect myself. I’m so over it!! I was able to figure out what it was and through the power of google and social media I actually got a glimpse into his life. I won’t get into details. None of it bothered me at all.. even the pics of him and his girl (or girl at the time).
One thing that did stand out was the fact that he seemed happy. Ok, what could I possibly tell from a photo? And I know..... no mindreading yada yada, but what stood out to me and was clear as day, was the fact that the shark eyes were gone. Maybe that’s what gave off the air of contentment. The lights were on behind those eyes... I recognized it.
So, what does that mean? Nothing. But if it is what it seems, Im having a moment of “ oh good”. I wouldn’t say “oh good, I’m happy for him”. I’m definitely not there. It’s more of an “oh good. Maybe he’ll stop harassing me soon.”
Oh well, that’s all I got for now. I’m gonna go play with the dog and procrastinate a bit more! Have a good one.
Last edited by Pax_luv; 03/17/1903:57 AM.
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