I should explain the title of this thread . It is from a movie (I love movies ) with Sean Penn and Susan Sarandon , I also read on one of the posts as if you consider you are dead already that’s how soldiers fight best and that’s how we could consider thinking.
I am still on a rollercoaster, but I need to fix myself and refocus on myself. I am determined to do the right thing. Continue the gym , taking care of myself and not obsessing about what could be going on . I seem very adverse to any sort of adultry type tv or movies or stories . I have lots to keep me busy and that helps . When I am low I still struggle to eat but most of the time I can do it .
I guess I am strong enough to endure and DB myself to a better place , making sure the 180’s stick ( no drinking, eating, smiling more , not being lazy , letting the small stuff go , becoming more sociable dressing better and taking care of myself)
I need to do some more introspection and improve myself
