I know whatever I say or bring up, it will find its way to W and I don't want that to happen. I'm not trying to convince the inlaws to hear my side. It's a juggling act though for sure. The older SIL had been sharing some of her issues with the new R and I have to be careful saying how I understand from my own relationship issues.
This is very wise Adam. It must be difficult to stay vigilant and not let your feelings or thoughts "slip" when talking to SIL. I'm sure it would feel great in the moment to have someone to commiserate with, but you're right to try to keep it private.
Originally Posted by Adam04
I'm still angry, hurt, upset, and disgusted with the way things happened with W. At the same time, I need to be the best me while standing for the MR. A lot of it is walking this journey alone, if you will. There is no one I can share my day with or confide in like I used to with her. I'm still trying to find me, trying to balance this all out.
This is one of the hardest parts, isn't it? Just missing the feeling of having your "other half". I never liked that phrase because I don't think people complete one another. I really do think we' are all whole within ourselves. But having someone who understands the nuances of your day and life is such a great experience, and you can't just replace that. It's hard. Good on you for working through it with awareness.
