Last attempt. OrangeK v.2

[OrangeK]

I'm going to write a more detailed post later oh, but I just need to get some stuff off my chest immediately. it's been months since this has happened, yet another situation where I have this horrible gut feeling that something is coming out of pipes. Accompanying this negatively intuitive feeling is the old feeling in my guts that feels like a slow-burning Cole. Like I could breathe smoke and toxic fumes. it has literally been months since this has happened, and I did not miss it. I'm willing to bet that I will have something in the mail either tomorrow or Monday from her attorneys, as I feel like this is another situation where I can sense something-4 frustrating is happening on her end. As I've said before I think she usually carries her head in the sand and pretend like none of this happened so when she has to go to her lawyer's office and actually deal with it, I can sense it on my end. I know that that is literally the definition of mind reading, but there has been enough evidence for me in the past when this happens that there's a reason for it and it's not just in my head. what I hope is our final court date regarding the restraining order I had placed against her father is coming up in about two weeks. The window for us to submit any files regarding this case closes at the end of next week so it makes sense that she would be going to her lawyer's office. I've done a good job of putting on a face of someone who has healed lately, but I'm starting to realize that that is not the case. In the dark of the night when I am alone I still find myself plagued with what ifs and other hypothetical nonsense. I've told so many other people and myself a thousand times that I am healed and done with this but allegedly that's not the case.