Bo, I know this isn't what you were hoping for. Lots of steps in these sitch are gut-punches. BD. WAS moving out. Being served D papers. Mediation. D court. D finalizing. It all stinks, big time, and hurts the LBS more than the WAS ever realizes, knows, or cares.
True—not what I was hoping for, or necessarily wanted. I never asked for this, even if there are things I may have done to her or not done for her. But I’ve mentioned before that my attraction towards her on all levels (physically, emotionally, spiritually) has been waning the last few months.
It hurts me, yes....but I’m afraid for the kids. They don’t deserve this, whatever I may have done or not done to or for W. I just saw in the feed of latest posts someone mentioned that the kids are the true victims—they didn’t ask for this, don’t deserve this.
And I’m really heartbroken about the potential of not seeing YS nearly as much. I’m absolutely ga-ga over him, and am so grateful that he’s here and I find him to be such a blessing. I know it’s not YS’ fault, but it just feels like the pregnancy with him really ‘broke’ W, emotionally and spiritually. Who knows, maybe W would have wanted a D, even if we didn’t have YS. But man.....
And I’m also afraid of them being taken away from me as much as W wants in her proposed custody arrangement. They need their Daddy—way more than every other weekend, and Wed—Fri..
Originally Posted by Steve85
Bo we are here for you man. I said a prayer for you and will continue to pray for you and your sitch.
Thanks. I’ll be off to commute to work / school soon. I’d like to share later on an encounter I had with my priest confessor earlier this week, during our Lent Reconciliation / Penance / Confession services—it was interesting, and rather eye-opening, to me.
