Clinging to Hope

[hope2019]

Thanks All, I'm still pretty sure there is no OW but prepared for the blow if there is (I think at this point it would make it easier), the trip was something he had told me about months ago (a friend of his, who I admire and is a good family person and got on well with), is going to his friend's bachelor party there and he has pretty much invited himself along for the ride. Booked it yesterday morning, wasn't going to tell me etc but I don't think he would be up to no good with his friend there, he seems to have a lot of respect for me and at the very least D6.

For the deadline, I guess you are right about the pressure, but this is something I know I have to do. I cannot wait around for him after doing something as terminal as divorce, I have to know that I'm worth more than that and for whatever reason him knowing that seemed to wake him up a little.


I'm going to go away, I got in touch with my boss and planned a work trip out to Utah, for a few days. I'm so scared and anxious (even though it was my idea) at the thought of being away, and on my own and in this lonely hotel room for a few days but also it will just be one more thing for me to get through. I have no expectations at this point, but I will take your advice and leave no information and come here for any responses. I have IC again tomorrow so can hopefully work through this trip anxiety.