And you Nef are the best supporter / cheerleader one could ask for. I appreciate everything you've done for me and your bright words have always been such a boon.
This is a good place to close this thread. I won't be starting a new one. My DB journey with exW has come to a close and I am in a brilliant place for myself. Yes, the M couldn't be saved, but I have saved myself - which is freakin' priceless.
I'll be around on and off. To all the newbies! I feel your pain. Stick with the journey; go inward; go GAL; engage in personal growth; and love yourself. You can change your story.
As Nef said - acceptance, no expectations, and self-satisfaction. You will reach it, and when you do, there's nothing like it. Much love to all that have been with me on my journey and I will continue to grow and keep on my path to be AMOAFWL!