Thanks for your encouragement guys, Wednesday is his night for drinking. He used to do it alone, then he started with OW. Tonight he went again, I am afraid that he went with her, that they will make up tonight. Even if he didn't go with her, once he starts drinking he will probably call her. I hate this, I wish I could just take him away from here or get rid of her. I am scared that he will keep going back to her. I know that I am just being impatient. I guess I am tired of being strong. I haven't really cried this week even when I am by myself, I came close a few times, especially tonight when I was shopping and that stupid Shania Twain song came on, always and forever or something like that. Anyways, usually when he does come home there is an actual improvement between us. Last week he held and kissed me and said I was 'perfect'. I know that I shouldn't get my hopes up, cause it could easily go the other way and I would be so crushed. Patience, I am getting sick of that word....
