So we got into a heated argument yesterday when I wanted to talk to her about her coming and going with the kids. Looking back at it now, it appeared to be controlling on how I cane across. She thought based on what I was talking to her about was that I was going to prevent her or limit her time with the kids. This is not the case at all but that is how it came across.
This is something I will be bringing up to my IC today. I have a lot more thank thought to work on. Self control, not being controlling, communicating better, listening. A lot. It is going to take some time to get these changes but I can do it. I will need support. My BIL is my life coach right now. When j stray from me, he has me refocus on me. I lack self confidence due to recent depression. I was not always lacking self confidence. I need to rehab. It. By having self confidence, j will learn to love myself first. I need tk stop focusing on the W or the R.
It will have Iran up and downs. She might be filing for D.m based on the discussion last night. I can’t control that. The BiL told me that I need to release all control and tell myself what will happen will happen. I can’t prevent it. I can only control me. I need to stop trying to fix things or do things. I need to refocus all of my attention on myself. Even my therapy appointments have been focusing on my R or my W. I am going to start focusing all that attention on myself.
