I find the uncertainty of the future really hard too. What helps is remembering that I am actually uncertain myself. I am extremely ambivalent about my marriage and I don't want what H has on offer right now. I am working towards resilience and independence and when I judge it is the right time for me to initiate D, if ever, I am free to do that. And if I judge it is right for me to give this more time, I am free to do that too - and that's my own decision. It makes me feel a bit more focused on the bits of this I can control.
