He made the proposal to me a day after BD. And followed it up with "the divorce closes the door on us, but if you make the divorce difficult and we have to use 2 separate attorneys then you will lock the door on us and you will get less". I was in such a "I need to do everything his way to win him back" mindset that I just agreed, I did not want that door to lock.
Now I'm up and down between wanting the door to lock and not. But I need to completely separate that from what is happening and I need to ensure that D6 and I have a decent future without him.
I've somehow moved from LRT to No-contact, which is probably not a good thing but it helping me to detach. He leaves now before I get up in the mornings and I lock myself in my room before he is home at night. Funny how for a lot of our marriage I would try to get him to make an effort to be more social here and have more friends etc and he refused, suddenly he is mr social and has somewhere to be every night and day.
I'm not sure what I should do....stay in NC for a while, he kept telling me he hasn't had a chance to miss me, even with all his trips away and our NC during them. or if I should drop the NC and go LRT. I just don't know. the NC has been happening since 2pm Saturday.
ILYBINILWY - 11/19/18 Got Better - 12/20/18 Counseling - Jan and Feb MIL issues - Jan BD - 2/13/2019 IHS - 2/14/2019
