Neffer...you are so much more aware of yourself than my XH. He just runs from person to person trying to find himself in them. His mom says he has always been insecure and deeply sensitive to perceived rejection or disapproval. She says he is always drawn to strong women but then soon feels inadequate and judged by them. Looking inwards is something he avoids at all cost. I made a career out of protecting him from himself. Not my job anymore.
My kids were so, so sweet tonight. They really are the light of my life. My daughter left a note on my IPad that I should take $10 from her account for a gift and I’m not allowed to say no...lol. My son can’t seem to go more than two hours without hugging me like his life depends on it and saying, “Mom...I love you soooooooooo much.” My heart almost breaks from the sheer joy of it.
Thanks AS. New guy and I continue to have these marathon text sessions. Lots of jokes but also some interesting philosophical conversations. He beat stage three colon cancer 13 years ago and it sent him on a journey of self discovery and gave him a new appreciation for life. Must be where all of his positive energy comes from. Anyway...I am enjoying the conversations. Hoping to be able to have some face-to-face ones in the near future.
