Great to hear from you again. Sounds like you have done pretty well moving forward. Don’t be so hard on yourself. You have got lots of time to meet someone and have your forever relationship. Just focus on figuring out who you are without someone. I was 32 when my first marriage broke up and I spent five years on my own. I remember having similar fears but I got busy. Started playing pool competitively, got into martial arts, met lots of people and had a great time. In the end, I met my STXH and we had the family I worried I would never have. And now? Well... new chapter... I will figure it out. I have met a lot of great people I would never have met had this not happened to me so that, in itself, is a blessing. You will be just fine.
BTW...I don’t know if your new guy lied or not. The reason sounds pretty legit to me but then I lived with a liar for 13 years so I’m not the best judge...lol. When I first started internet dating, I met a guy who literally swept me off my feet. We were really compatible in a lot of ways. He told me I was his soul mate, bought me all kinds of gifts and even took me to Vegas...all within the span of four weeks. Then, as suddenly as he had appeared, he was gone...lol. My dad and sister were also diagnosed with cancer around that time so his departure was felt a lot more deeply than if that had been all I was dealing with. But...I eventually got over it...and we are Facebook friends...lol.
So this guy didn’t work out. That’s totally okay. You learned some really important things about yourself. You can fall for someone again... you can see your future with someone else. You will get there my friend. I will see you over on the divorced thread soon if you decide to post there...lol.