Still in limbo

[Living]

Hi girl,

You have done a great job at this. Now is not the time to backslide. Take stock of what is working.

Lol, I’m not sure what is and what’s not working. Ha! I need to pay more attention to that. I’m writing more in my journal, maybe I should go back and re-read some entries. Thanks for the vote of confidence! It’s truly day by day.

I assume you have finished reading TAoS. Anything in there that you want to add to your new self?

I have finished it. It was good read and I see many things I can add to my new self. Only thing is the book kind of mKa me horny and sort of like a seductress. Lol!

I strongly suggest you take some time and reflect on your weekend away. Did H feel like he was loosing you? How did he respond.

I’m positive he felt like he wasn’t losing me. He totally lost his sh@t. I think he thought I was with another man. He almost went nuts.

He was also a bit worried while he was away on his trip because of the way I communicated with him. I kept it short, ended the conversation first, and didn’t respond to his text messages right away (some days not at all).

He wanted me to know how much he missed me but he felt like I didn’t miss him.

I had plans while he was away and one night I went out. He called, I answered. He asked was I going out, I said yes. The next morning he called, the first question he wanted to know was how was my night out. Lol, I got a good laugh out of that.

Part of this process is YOU finding yourself. How many new female friends IRL have you made since BD? Maybe that is a goal for you.

I wish you well.

Again, have fun with this. It is your life.

I haven’t met any new female friends. I’ve been hanging out with some of my current friends.

And R2C the one thing that I’m thankful for during this crazy ordeal is that I’m finding myself. Day by day, I find myself even more. I’m loving the person that I’m becoming. My confidence is coming back. Oh and he’s noticing it! But my confidence coming back has nothing to do with him per day. It’s coming back because I’m doing the work on me. Again, I’m going to become the woman that he will be a fool to leave. And if he does leave, it will be his loss!