Feeling lost getting over it and maybe not caring

[Turbine]

Saw Captain Marvel with my son. Forgot my shoes at their house. Bought a new pair.Needed to at some point because the heels were getting thin.

My efforts at the gym are paying off. Had a handle at work that was bent. So I bent it back by hand. Opened a few eyes. Upped the resistance on the bike and held pace about 16 mph.

Restoring my faith.... I'm praying lots. More conversation with actually. I am trying to be alert to His plan without putting my desire first. That is still there but I pray Mrs. Turbine relents a little bit. At the moment... not feeling it or seeing it.

I did put more picture and paintings back on the wall. Nothing said and still in place.

She ate the pork chops I cooked too. Take away from that.... one less meal for me and not wasted. I am not a bad cook. Just when I cook and it would be something I know she would eat.... and she would not choose too. May not be an issue much longer. Sad thought but not debilitating.

Still fighting off the terminally stupid monster. It hurts. That isn't a solution. Only moves the pain to others who did nothing to deserve it. Oh for some affection from her. A smile, a laugh, a touch... rather than a scowl or the ignored treatment.

Family hugs are far cry from her hugs. Better than none. Not going to look for a replacement hug giver either. Wrong on to many levels.