Pax - Some remorse I think...in the moment...when he faces me and has to face himself. But once his is out the door...who knows? He is a broken person. I am better off than he is, by far. He has no ability to live on his own and stand on his own two feet. I am actually kind of sad for him. He is not living an honest life and he hasn’t for a very long time. He has to live with that and he can’t run from himself forever.
Phoenix - I think I always had faith that I would get to this place. It has been a really hard journey and I know it is not completely over but I definitely feel like the worst is over.
Been texting a lot with Facebook guy. It is funny... he is not what I would call my normal type. We don’t have a lot in common other than we both grew up in the same hometown. He has a number of tattoos and I have none. He is in amazing shape. I am a work in progress. He is a sun worshiper and I like hot weather but usually you will find me in the shade...lol. Probably why I don’t look my age. He has a high school education but is his own boss and owns a couple of houses and has no debts. I have three university degrees and work for the government and I had no debts before my separation but they are small compared to most people I know. He likes to backpack and stay in hostels. I like a nice hotel...lol. So not exactly a perfect match. But there is just something about him that I am drawn to and my heart definitely skips a beat when I think about him. He is very much a man whereas my XH is more of a boy. When I met him on Saturday, there was no awkwardness at all. I liked him immediately and he looked just like his pictures (unusual in OLD apparently]. He gave me a big hug [we’re both huggers] and we talked non stop until he had to leave. Since then we’ve probably spent at least two hours a day texting. So it appears that maybe there is something about me that he likes too? Anyway...I have no idea if this is going to turn into anything but I am definitely enjoying getting to know him. Kinda [censored] that I probably won’t see him again until after I get back from my trip but maybe that is a good thing.
Anyway...sleep time for DV6. Definitely need my beauty sleep.
