If I ever had that attitude around my grandmother, she would softly say this: "I felt sorry for myself b/c I had no shoes, until I saw the man who had no feet".
It's easier to put things in perspective when I realize at what I do have and I have it better than others. I'm slowly starting to see that and feel it.
Originally Posted by sandi2
I think I read about your speed dating right before I went to bed last night, and then I dreamed about it.
I'm flattered that I am having that kind of impact
Originally Posted by AnotherStander
Sounds like you had an enjoyable evening! I'm not sure what to think of the one woman that was being so forward, sounds like she was more interested in some flirty making out rather than a relationship but it doesn't sound like you got particularly attached so no harm, and you got in some flirting practice!
It started with the speed dating thing and just made its way to the night after. While I know that I am definitely on the upswing and things appear to get better by the day, I still have to slow down and just grasp at all of these things that are happening. Heavy interest from at least two women, improved relationships with my loved ones, good job performance, good health...I knew that the hard work I have been putting in the last eight months would pay off. I just never imagined that it would take this form.
AS, to be honest, I was not interested in much more other than some flirting. The touching and making out was just a bonus. Whatever happens going forward I am going to enjoy. I have never had experience with the dating lifestyle, mostly because I was so down on myself and was afraid to go out. I am realizing that the dating lifestyle can be a lot of fun. I need to remember to keep it controlled and not let it go awry. I still have a responsibility to live a healthy, positive lifestyle. I can now cut a little loose. A new relationship is the furthest thing from my mind right now.
ovr, thanks for the support. It has been very liberating this last couple of months (since the beginning of this year) and discovering this person called Phoenix9 has been transforming into something I never expected. I apparently was not kidding when I said I was being reborn.
I have been looking for tattoo inspirations lately. I want my next tattoo to be a Phoenix and I was thinking of getting it on my right chest. I found one that I really like and the following quote by Ronni Waltz was overlaid on top of the image:
Quote
She is the phoenix...who has risen from the ashes to which she has been reduced...this time wiser, stronger, and more powerful in her own right. She is the fire, looking for someone to warm...to enlighten...but never to burn...she is a bird in flight, that one can only see if they believe in her...she cries tears that can heal wounded hearts, souls, and bodies...in her rising she is cautious and aware of her own vulnerability...yet still as inquisitive and observant as she ever was...she is a little dark and very mysterious,...but will not omit trush...and overlooks noting...contrary to the shallow minds of the world...she is alive...she does exist...she is the phoenix...and she has risen again.
