It's obvious that I am still jealous. I still have the "it's not fair" mentality but it is getting further and further in between.
If I ever had that attitude around my grandmother, she would softly say this: "I felt sorry for myself b/c I had no shoes, until I saw the man who had no feet".
I think I read about your speed dating right before I went to bed last night, and then I dreamed about it.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!