That R talk is the last one. There was no purpose to it other than to clear the air. I know what it looks like from the outside looking in but I know myself well enough to know that it was a talk I needed to have...and it was at talk that he needed to have as up until yesterday, I had not let him apologize to me. I was not trying to get him back or anything like that. There were just some things that needed to be dealt with and we did. There was no other outcome expected or needed. I think it benefitted both of us.
Re: me being a hypocrite. I don’t think so. My H left one live-in relationship and went directly into another without a day in between. For me it has been seven months of being alone...four years, seven months if you want to be completely accurate. I am not living with anyone or promising anything to anybody. I’ve been up front with the people I’ve met that I am not looking for anything serious and primarily just wanting to meet people and expand my circle of friends. I haven’t slept with anyone...I haven’t even kissed anyone. I don’t see myself being hung up on my H. Are ALL my feelings gone? No. But I am nowhere near where I was when this started. I am healing. I am moving forward but I’m not trying to find another husband. I am fine being on my own. So far, I’ve met one person who is quickly becoming a good friend. He knows exactly where I am at and I know where he is at. He has an amazing spirit and outlook on life that I am drawn to and we’ve had some really good conversations. I think he is someone I will learn a lot from. If it becomes more than a friendship in the future, I think I would be very lucky to have him for a partner. For now though, he is my friend and I like him a lot.
As always...so grateful to have the people on this board looking out for me and asking me the tough questions. Much love to you all...
