Things are okay today. I got my goodnight message and sent a supportive text today.
I think we're both pretty bruised after the Friday date. I guess I had lots of hopes. I know he was disappointed that I got upset - it's a regular complaint of his - that he wants to tell me something is wrong or withdraw to take care of himself, and I get so reactive and emotional he's got to take care of me, whether he wants to or not, and that takes away his choices. I see he wants to see me doing a lot more self care and being more emotionally independent, and I want to see him wanting to get close to me because he wants to, and not just to pacify me.
I don't really agree with his view on things - but then again, it is his view and that matters. I think the GAL stuff I have planned with work for me no matter what happens. As Flying Solo said, I need to heal and he can't do it for me.
