Hey Krull, I definitely feel for you. One day is great, the next day feels impossible. Try to focus on all the good that you're doing for yourself and others right now. You sound really motivated, hold onto that and keep up all of the positive changes.
Me 36, W 32 M 3 yrs, T 7 yrs 1st BD Aug 18 2nd BD Feb 19 EA w/ ex Aug 18 potential EA Feb 19 Trial Separation 3/2/19