It's OK. It is difficult to see the truth of it when you are right in the middle and you are right, he might not be.
I've been avoiding spending too much time here so I haven't kept up with your thread. I can see you want it to work though. But it worries me that it is all one way. His feelings. His hurt. His needs. If he were a narcissist, then right now, he has everything he wants and things will never change. Have you thought about taking some time out for you. A weekend away somewhere on your own - get some distance, or perhaps start a hobby which has nothing to do with the two of you. Something just for you?
This wouldn't be about being with him, or not being with him, this would be about finding a way to heal you.
