Journaling 09/03/2019:

Hi all, just wanted to update. Well, I still haven't been issued any legal proceedings from my WW, who has moved home to her home country (Germany). It's been over 3 weeks since she contacted me regarding this. After 4 months of NC from her.

I haven't made contact with her since then.

I have been busy GAL, detached and doing my best. Been exercising a lot, also climbed a mountain today which was fun and healthy with a friend...

Also, been busy restoring an old car, which has definitely given me a passion, which I'm really enjoying.

I have come a long way since last August. I'm calmer, accepted the situation and looking forward.

My WW I believe is no longer living in Ireland and has moved home to Germany to live with her AP since maybe (Dec/January 2019) I don't know, I haven't asked. It's almost 5 and a half months since she first told me she wanted a Divorce, yet still hasn't done anything. Who knows, maybe next week I will receive a letter.

I wish all of this never happened and at least we could have tried something together to fix our M, however, she never showed any interest in R with me. That is a hurt I will carry for a while. "Why wasn't I worth fighting for".

I do know my value, I kept my dignity and haven't sent her any abuse or spoke ill to her family.

Sadly, it is what it is now. I don't think my marriage can be saved anything. I have lost hope. She's not coming back.

My marriage is over.

Maybe her Limerence will end one day and she will regret her actions, but it's a shame 7 years has just been forgotten so quickly and blown up. Every road and place i see has a memory tied to my WW and I. It's hard passing these places and remembering all the love and fun times we shared together.

But I will be ok. I will.


BH: 36 WW:33
M: 2
Relationship: 6 years. Dday: Aug 2018
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1st mention of D: 30/09, 2nd Mention 17/02/2019
LRT: Oct 2018
WW & AP: EA & PA since June 2018 (Moved country and in with AP Feb 2019)