1 Week from move date. Getting pretty excited. I don't think it helps for my H to "see me" having fun, I deleted my FB account and he doesn't follow me on my instagram, he hasn't been home for almost a month and rarely talks to me SO he doesn't really have any idea what I'm up to. Its pretty safe to say he's moving in the direction of moving on. Or he's doing some real deep thinking, I don't really know or care honestly.
So some people on this site would probably advise me that this is a bad idea, but I did end up going on a few dates. Nothing serious obviously because I'm moving out of the state in a week, just casual drinks. But it honestly I was kind of eye opening and helpful to push me more in the direction of letting go. I was stuck in the mind set of "theres only him for me, I only had one future and he was in it, he was the best, etc" but after I went on these dates it was like oh wow, there are other nice guys on the planet I don't have to be so hung up on someone who doesn't even want me anymore. So that was good. Feeling a lot better about myself. Having a lot of girl time with my friends.
I can feel that I am changing and even one of my friends pointed out to me "I've never seen you like this before, I love it" that I just seemed more happy and positive and having fun. I could tell when I was married that I was kind of uptight and I've always struggled with anxiety (that was one of the issues my H had with me was that social situations made me anxious). Since this all happened I've been working to tone my anxiety way down and its actually working really well.
Probably won't post much after this because I don't suspect things to get any better or change. He'll probably just mail me the divorce papers and that will be that. From the guy who couldn't even be bothered to try.
