13 years and 2 kids pt. 5

[Hurt213]

Checking in..

Hi forum..

Hope all of you are hanging in there, and taking care of you, because you and your kids, if such exists, are all that matters. Be happy that you are alive, and dont waste your time mind reading, sobbing and trying to fix your walk away spouse, its not your job. That is entirely on them.

So accept the gift of life, instead of wasting it being a victim of your own mental prison.

Today I got the kids, and for the next 7 days, I am gonna enjoy life to the fullest, because a smile from one of those two little munchkins, can light up my day like nothing else in this world. And in 7 days, when they go to their mothers, guess what, I am gonna enjoy life, because then I have time for me, time to do what I want to do, and I am embracing that.

Did I ask for this? nope?
Can I change it? nope? life happens
Can I 180 on bad behavioral patterns and be an even better version of my self, a human and a father that I feel proud to turn into? absolutely.
Can I find happiness again? I am beginning to think, that I am actually starting to feel happy, and I dont really need a woman in my life in order to be happy. It will of course be nice to have a partner to share life with and share the ups and the lows, but I am content with the fact, that I am perfectly capable of BEING and LIVING on my own. I dont fear the future, I embrace it, and thats honestly a great feeling.

Have the best weekend possible - And to those of you, who are spinning or riding the rollercoaster on a low, you are in my prayers and my thoughts are with you. Remember the coaster can only go low for so long.... eventually it will seek towards the skies again. Emotions are temporary, logic is the way to go about this. Practice logic, and let emotions pass through you, and then, you will end up being fine. You already are fine, you just have to realize, that fine can exist perfectly well without your WAW/WW in your life.

/H