I seem to be on the upswing again. I think I just needed to let some of the sadness out and the rejection was the trigger.
It's obvious that I am still jealous. I still have the "it's not fair" mentality but it is getting further and further in between. I am slow starting to accept that some things in life are not fair. Complaining about it will not change the circumstances surrounding those feelings. Actions make those changes. Actions to change myself.
I went to a speed dating event last night and it was a lot of fun. I don't think I matched with anyone, which is a bummer, but I also see it as an opportunity to apply what I have been learning to use. It is also a good opportunity to handle rejection, which is something that is going to happen as I navigate through this new journey. I have been reading Corey Wayne's book How to be a 3% man. I'm on my second readthrough. Very good book. His YouTube videos are gold as well.
No change in our sitch. I need to get the ball rolling and start the filing process. I still want WW out of the house by summer. Speaking of which, we are getting a little better along. Nothing that is indicative of love or recon or anything like that. Just...proper partnership. So...progress.
I am going to another social GAL event tonight. D5 is with me throughout the weekend so I'm looking forward to that.
