Gerda is just taking a little break, i.e., giving up posting on the forum for Lent. She'll be back around Easter. However, people can continue to post to provide her the support she needs and she will be so surprised to see that we are still posting even though she's taken a break for just a wee bit of time.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.