Something I have been wondering about but never took the time to ask you, but why do you use the adjective "little" before Gerda in your thread titles? From a neutral reader, me, that seems like you are putting yourself down. The same thread title without this word comes across much more positively. I am just curious.
As for your recent couch encounter, don't beat yourself up about how you reacted and what you said/asked. I understand that it would probably have been nice to have something happen but maybe best that nothing did, without you being sure it was "real" and/or for you. If it was for you, another occasion will come. If not take back out the patience shovel job gives us all at the beginning of our journey. Either way don't dwell on it and don't remind H of it unless he brings it up.
Sorry I have missed where you explained you saying goodbye. Sometimes it is helpful to take a step back from here. This place although a huge support network, does keep us focused on the the pain of our M and that of others. Make the most of your time away. Best wishes
R 25 years M 14 years S11 & S13 Working on it alone since Oct 2014 M in trouble a lot earlier (~2 years) Feb 2016. 1st R chat in a yr. Next R chat Aug'17 Still together
