neffer - GAL is going fine. She's been gone over a year now, S lives with me, and things have been pretty calm for the most part since I'm avoiding W every way I possibly can.
Steve85 - Man, you know, I hadn't actually talked to aunt in a while. She messaged me, and honestly whatever happens to W is totally on her. She's not sending me info like she used to for sure, and that's been a nice thing. But if W is preg, then that's going to put a serious hold on the D. I'm ready for it to be over already, but it keeps getting pushed back (at least now it's due to atty time conflicts with trial dates). Nothing about W shocks me anymore, and at this point, if she's preg, I can probably just laugh since it's definitely not my child, and there's zero question about that.
I guess that's the upside to detaching. No matter what it is, I'm not really going to be all that shocked (unless she's dying or something, which would be a bad thing). Nothing else will actually be that surprising that I can think of.
I'm mentally ready to hear literally anything at this point: preg, engaged, std, whatever. Not my problem at all.
In fact, because she's so likely NPD, it also wouldn't shock me if she tried to come back when she makes a big enough mistake and expects me to bail her out of it. That's highly unlikely at this point.
I've come a very long way. I can't say that I'm past the hurt, because honestly it still hurts. I don't think I'm ever going to be the way I was before her. Nothing in my life has ever hurt as much as this did. But that doesn't mean I can't be happy and make the best of things for S and I. And that's what I plan to do.
In a way, I hope she's ok. But in a way, I also just don't care anymore. I don't know if that's good or bad, but it is what it is.
