Clinging to Hope

[hope2019]

Feeling awful. There is no OW and I'm certain of that but my husband has a close female friend (used to be flat mates) and when we met they referred to each other as husband and wife. Nothing had ever happened between them but they were a close group of 4 and the 2 of them were best friends. I always had a horrible feeling about her, I always felt she had strong feeling for my H that she hadn't told him. We have argued about her several times in our R. This morning I saw on Instagram a picture of the two of them and she had used the hashtag husband on it.

I'm so upset that someone could be so disrespectful and can't help but think he is probably already back to calling her wife. Like the last 3 years didn't exist and my daughter and I just aren't important. It's taking everything in me not to call him and make him aware of it because I know that won't show that I'm moving on, it just really really hurts. It's like she is trying to be the OW but I know she never will be. I don't think shes an EA either, he did pretty much distance himself from her because it used to upset me when they talked as I didn't trust her. I should have trusted him though. Hating myself today.