Ex is in the house, I’m in an appt. I was the one to foolishly move out. Ex manipulated me to leave. He convinced me it was supposed to be temporary to give us space. he convinced me that I couldn’t possibly manage the property on my own... yada yada. So off I went to do the noble thing for our marriage and give him the space he wanted. What a fool I was. Little did I know he was draining our accounts and writing checks in my name to his sister.... amongst other things.
Criminals.
So, here I am.... in my little ole one bedroom apartment. I can’t do any sort of vacation rental, plus my lawyer was clear that any additional income that I got from anywhere, my ex would go after (as he could technically still have rights to it). It’s all pretty crazy if you ask me as I’m more than willing to look at ways to supplement my income. In fact, I was about to accept another job when my lawyer cautioned me that it might be income available to support ex. Shake my head.
And tonight I just have to share... I am so overwhelmed. Forgive the long winded venting. I’m at my limit.
My legal sitch is nuts. I think I had a longstanding anxiety attack last week given all the court stuff that was supposed to happen. That was tough. Also, Work is pretty stressful. I do love my job, but it’s a big load. I’ve had to raise the white flag a few times and everyone’s been pretty supportive, but I’m a leader and I want to consistently demonstrate that when the going gets tough, I roll up my sleeves and do what’s necessary to get the job done. Unfortunately, the sheer volume is getting increased. I’m in a game of Tetris right now and those bricks are coming faster and faster and my walls are getting taller and taller. It’s precarious. I’m also cognizant of the fact that I’m sure people are like- well, maybe she’s overwhelmed because she has a lot of stuff going on personally as well. <—- and i HATE that because I try to not let my personal stuff interfere. It’s tough and people judge.
Anyway, to relieve the stress, I opted to go to the gym for a late night session tonight. On my way home I stopped at the gas station and a guy my age tried asking Me out. I was polite (as I always am) and he asked for my number and I said, oh no I don’t think so. He said, “why? You married? Have a boyfriend?” I said, “oh no, I’m just not interested. No thank you..” (Definitely not assertive enough on my part). He got a little pissed and said “ Good luck finding a man, you look like youre in your 50’s!” And laughed and walked towards his car.
Ok, so obviously this guy is scum, but I’m not gonna lie...It hurt my feelings. I could never be mean to someone like that.... never ever. It’s not necessarily what he said, it was moreso just being on the receiving end of some jerk’s bad behavior. I didn’t need that nor deserve it.
So, a little rattled, I drive home, pick up my mail and bring it inside. In it is: a baby shower invite, a bridal shower invite, a wedding save the date, dmv bill, an insurance bill, and health insurance paperwork that needs to be filled out ASAP. All of that is so overwhelming! And I was perturbed by the health insurance paperwork because I tried to get ex off my insurance, but they won’t let me remove him unless I can show them the divorce decree. I had to explain that I don’t have it, but I can submit the court minutes to prove I’m divorced and prove the judge said my ex needed to get his own insurance. But given him and his lawyers games and incompetence..... I’ve been divorced for 11 months (the marriage was actually bifurcated) with no proof because they haven’t submitted the judgement.
So since I called the insurance co a while ago to try and submit the court minutes, it triggered something in the system that makes them think I’m covering ex illegally and I have until next week to prove whatever.
So, I Thoight the best to do would be take a shower and go to bed. My friend had given me this natural phytocomplex calming sleep aid to try. She loves it. I’m too afraid to try a sleep aid by myself as I’ve never taken it before so I decided to pop an Advil pm in hopes of just falling asleep and not ruminating on how buried I feel right now.
Ugh. How much more can I take???!!! This is just absolutely bonkers.
Alrighty.... hope you all have a good rest of the week.
Me- 30's H- 40's T-10 M-5 I moved out b/c he wanted space- June 15 D filed by H: September 16
