Last attempt. OrangeK v.2

[OrangeK]

Stander, regarding the circuit breaker thing. That's pretty much why I'm running into issues with Mary right now, my walls are still up to strong and she's looking to have me open up. I've avoided doing so because I'm afraid to show her that I pretty much still feel dead inside, what portions of my emotional Spectrum are not comatose are behind High walls of self-defense. as far as why we had to see each other face-to-face, our son was sick and she had kept him out of daycare. so she texted me to coordinate in exchange for our son being that he was not at school where I normally pick him up, She mentioned she was at work so I asked if she was working where our son was. She said, to be completely transparent with you he is at my boyfriend's house. her boyfriend is much closer to my house then her mother's house where she is living most of the time is. she yet again asked me to come to her work to pick him up and I told her I could not do that, I then offered to pick him up at her boyfriend's house, I offered to pick him up at her mother's house, or I said that somebody could drop him off at my house. despite the fact that it made no sense logistically, she had her boyfriend Drive our son all the way to her work, then she drove him from her work to my house and dropped him off. I only offered to pick up at her boyfriend's house because it would have been convenient for everybody but she's still very adamant on me not meeting him. So long story short, when she came to drop him off at my house he was asleep and sick she had to bundle him out of the car. Because of this I had to walk down the stairs for my apartment and physically take him out of her arms. she said something to the effect of he's had a rough day give him all the snuggles and I simply smiled and said I will. in regards to the surprising lack of an emotional response, I can honestly say this surprise me because only a few weeks ago when she had to come and do pick up at my house it was still getting me all flustered, and when that happens her and I don't interact in person. so I found it very strange that when I had to have a face-to-face conversation with her for the first time in over a year that there was no emotional response at the time. admittedly since that happened she has found her way into my thoughts a little bit more often. I honestly can't say if it was a temperature check, I don't know what your friends situation was but I cannot see her ever backpedaling from the amount of drama lying and deception that went down during our break up. Also when she was asking me about my life and my situation with Mary she definitely made a point to mention that oh, and I quote, we have both moved on and are happy. I don't know if that was her attempt to try and reinforce her situation with the new guy. Honestly I don't try to figure out what's going on in her mind anymore. I have used other people's situations to try to determine if what she's doing is temperature King, her actions are too unpredictable and chaotic to really make a determination. Plus she also knows that the restraining order she had against me doesn't go away until May so she may be playing things delicately, plus we still have a court date coming up in a month in regards to her father