Last attempt. OrangeK v.2

[SteveLW]

Okay OK. I won't belabor it, but much of what you mention struggling with would be best worked out with a professional. I leave it to you but where there is a will there is a way. And you really can't afford to NOT get the help you need.

Also, sorry on how things are going with Mary. My concern for your involvement with her all along was whether or not you were really ready for a new relationship. Or if you were using her to dull your pain. Obviously the latter is not healthy and only you know deep down whether or not that was the case, or if you were really reaay to commit to and offer your heart to a new person.

As always, if this provides no insight to your current situation then just ignore it. Either way I am pulling for you OK, and praying for you!