Last attempt. OrangeK v.2

[OrangeK]

hello everybody, stopping in for a monthly update I suppose.

Things have been somewhat run-of-the-mill, some things new. Mary and I have run into a bit of a rough patch, I kind of expected this a little bit due to her inexperience with relationships. We have gotten past the honeymoon phase is so to speak and she is now beginning to seem concerned about the fact that the relationship is not what it was. She seems to have a very strong emotional response to what I would consider minor relationship issues. I have also found that in the past month or so I have been feeling very emotionally disconnected. I've had a very hard time getting in touch with my emotions lately. I feel like I had to shut so many of my emotional circuit breakers off in order to survive the divorce and the Lion's Share of them have not been flipped back on yet. To further complicate things ex-wife has been very chatty and uncharacteristically interested in what's going on in my life, seems to take any opportunity she can to bring up Mary, and has found some reason to text me pretty much every day for the past 2 weeks. I didn't even ask but she felt the need to reassure me that she is happy with her new life. it almost feels like she's trying to convince herself not me. what I hope is the final court date regarding father-in-law's criminal history with children is coming up in about a month. I still need to type up my response to their last document. Lastly oh, I have been experiencing random bouts of anxiety symptoms again. What I have previously referred to as twisty stomach feelings or gut feelings. I have been dealing with a recurring sinus infection since about Christmas and and well and truly done with winter.

I wish i could say that exw wasnt still often on my mind, but what I can say is that she does not dominate my emotions anymore. I don't get angry at the drop of a hat whenever somebody mentions her or something she did. We actually had to see each other face-to-face for the first time in over a year last week, I was fully expecting that to prompt a very strong emotional response and it did not. I will say that since that occasion she has been a lot more communicative with me. I just answer her questions when she asks them, play nice and move on with my day.