Clinging to Hope

[hope2019]

Trying to find the small wins... got through another weekend “on my own”. I hate work at the moment but I actually really am not enjoying the weekend. I read an interesting article today about losing your identity in a relationship and that’s exactly what happened to me. I went from independent and confident to full co-dependent and completely insecure. I need to work on those things if I am to have any hope that he will come home.

Still practicing my 180s, LRT, and going dark.

Question for anyone reading... he is in New Orleans for Mardi Gras, left early Saturday morning and won’t be home until late on Wednesday night. My daughter FaceTimed him yesterday evening to say hi. Having zero contact really is difficult for me but I am doing it so far. I also want to maintain some contact so I don’t know if I should just send a friendly text or not, something silly, breezy and friendly. We always make jokes about the amount of beads he takes with him and how many boobs he will see. Should I send a friendly; hope you are having a great time, hows the beads for boobs count going?
Just something tongue in cheek and silly. It’s so hard trying to balance not chasing but also not being cold.