I am doing my best at detaching but mostly I am able to just stay dark. I do best when we don't communicate at all. The one time she came around me I got nervous. I know this is something I have to get passed and I think in time I will. I am getting out there I like to think I am not waiting around for her but I know deep down I am. I do have time and I know it is my friend. I'd be lying if I said I didn't miss my wife and best friend.
