One of the key phrases on the homepage of this site and one I believe in is: "it is never too late to save your M". I have even read somewhere else that if you do the right stuff and stay open to the possibility of reconciliation that it is eventually inevitable. Whereas I would not be so categorical, many LBS here have reported years later that the WAS has made contact to communicate that they were wrong and wanted to come back. So in essence, I am saying that there is still hope.
A phrase that is often quoted here, especially in the Newcomers section is that ultimately it is the LBS who decides when it is over. But you don't have to decide today! Wheras your dobts are normal; dwelling on them will not help you.
Go read those books and busy yourself with whatever you would like to do. Enjoy that spring break trip.
And you are right to be grateful for all those sleepful nights that you have had. that is a blessing. I hope that now that the week has started that your routine will help you get past this phase.
Best wishes
R 25 years M 14 years S11 & S13 Working on it alone since Oct 2014 M in trouble a lot earlier (~2 years) Feb 2016. 1st R chat in a yr. Next R chat Aug'17 Still together
