You did not fail. You protected. That's not failing. It might 'feel' like that. But it is not. This is hard [DB], but to protect is indeed a noble thing. Remember they are just transient - those feelings. And, the feeling of failure, it will pass. Like the feeling of fear, egg-shall walking etc . They all pass.
Stay Strong.
Surfer.
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