I started my “Trust” novena that Gerda found for me. It really is perfect for where I am in my journey right now. Here’s another verse for my prayer journal:
I came to check on you, Grace. I am happy you started and I agree that that one is perfect for you. I made it into a little three-fold paper, I wish I could give you a copy. I will start today too. The only thing is that I am giving up the boards for Lent so I will check on you on Tuesday night if not before but then I can't talk about finishing the novena with you or maybe I will check in on you on the last day of the Novena, which will be March 11.
About the photo -- I did that in the beginning too. Also googled her, etc. H had told me that she was not local, so the local person who came up with that name I kept thinking wasn't her. Found out two years later it was her. I was thankful that God had spared me that pain, because after that my city was ruined for me for a while. I thought I would meet her anywhere. The neighborhood where I knew she worked became a sea of fire for me when I was in it.
It's good to consider that I don't have the feeling about my city anymore. I don't even know if they are still in communication or anything. He might even have someone else now. The feeling you have will fade. But the one thing you can do to help that process is to resist that temptation. Maybe you can give up looking at anything about her -- social media, photos, posts, etc. -- for Lent. Wednesday until Easter. God will help you do that during Lent, remember that it is a way to get closer to Him via Christ, not to torture yourself.
About trust prayers -- Sometimes when I am really sinking, I just say over and over, "Sacred heart of Jesus, I put my trust in you." I just keep saying it over and over until peace comes.
I believe I will see the bounty of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord with courage. Be stouthearted, and wait for the Lord.
